Warning: This post sounds a bit ramblish. Tired, but I had to get this out there.
Confession: I am struggling.
Struggling with mostly the fact that I don't feel like I'm enough.
Often, I don't feel like I deserve to share much of anything.
I mean, I'm not a multi-time marathon runner or someone who shed half of their body weight. Hell, I don't even live on my own.
I could have an awesome day at work or kill it in spin class, but all that can go down the drain in a matter of minutes after seeing people complete their Xth half or second race in two days.
I'm just proud of saying I completed nine 5K's and maintaining a 100 pound weight loss for a year.
Yet, I feel like that isn't enough.
Granted, I know that those two tasks are tough, but I still struggle with seeing so many other people do so much better than me.
Then I realized that what is good for one person isn't necessarily good for another.
I never started running to try and complete multiple marathons. I just did it to do something different. Eventually, I liked the pavement. I probably will never be the fastest runner out there, but isn't getting out there what it's all about anyway?
So what if I never do a marathon? So what if I didn't lose half of my body weight? I did what I didn't think was possible, and feel awesome about that!!
I started this journey to healthy living for me five years ago, and just have to remember that's why I do this. Not for the glory of marathon medals or the features in magazines. I did it to make myself a better person and I am a much better version of me than I was five years ago.
In the end, that's really enough. As long as I love myself and what I've done, that's really all I need.
I. Am. Enough!